Plane Discoveries.

1. The smell of paper bags makes me want to throw up.
2. Finding pictures or symbols in clouds is so much better in the air.
3. I can’t believe that I wanted to have a child by myself, right now.
4. I will get married.
5. I could be a nun. Honestly.
6. I’ll be a flight attendant in a few years.
7. I’m not a failure.
8. I try too hard, and need to relax.
9. It’s very nice to be regular. It really is.
10. Old people smell.. weird.
11. No one person will be the end of my life as I know it.
12. Even though I am as perfect as possible sometimes, I feel sad still.
13. I love my family more than I let myself get a grasp on.
14. I’m scared to be left, I’m scared to be alone after having been left.
15. My ambition is a false understanding of my courage and determination.
16. Just having a good time can be enough to teach me valuable lessons for life.
17. Is it really worth learning lessons if you don’t pass them on?
18. Listening to music like Chairlift and 303 makes clothes look better when I’m trying them on in a dressing room.
19. It’s okay for me to be moved by the music, and letting it move me—which some people refer to as “dancing.”
20. I have no reason to not exist.
21. I am very lucky that God picked me to be a patch in his quilt.
22. I deserve nothing, but have close to everything.
23. Apparently, knowing the right things to say, being bold enough to stand up for something or someone, and pretending to know a lot makes a person ‘cool.’
24. I have come to terms with being “cute” instead of “pretty,” and I have come to realize that …it doesn’t really matter either way, anyway.
25. I can handle physical pain better than mental pain.
26. I think I just might have the ability to analyze myself objectively, at this point.
27. Little kids have it right. Always.
28. Society can create so many issues, that I’m starting to believe that society has been my role model for a long time now.
29. I’m sad to stay, I’m sad to leave. Belonging is more of an issue than feeling whether or not I fit in. (I fit in anywhere, but I don’t seem to belong anywhere.)
30. Sometimes I have it right, and sometimes my sister leads me to other discoveries (and I’m lucky for that).
31. I’m blessed to be a listener. I hate having to “help” with anything physically, but at least I can help mentally.
32. Being afraid of yourself is a bad thing.
33. There’s no reason to put yourself down, ever. There’s no reason to put anyone else down ever, either.
34. I’m starting to think that I was created for my loving superpowers.
35. Dreams prove to me that I don’t make everything up, like I think I do.
(It’s nice knowing that I’m not always a liar, to everyone else—to myself.)
36. Denial is, in fact, the best way for me to handle my fuck-ups.