It's not God's bad that Paula cheated on Alex.
It's not God's bad that Dakota is with her.
I don't want to have to be sad, if that's what it takes for me to really write.
I wonder if He sends me weird dreams, with the intention of me writing about them. Taking them, and explaining, and twisting them.
And I just don't.
If I did, ..would I be lighter? Am I being sent strange dreams as tests, to see what I'll do with them, or ..?
If I start doing what I'm supposed to do, will the dreams turn into something more serious? Something that will matter? Something that is needed to be known, to be interpreted?
Are my strange dreams, my bad dreams, my scary dreams, my too-good-to-be-true dreams, my disguised dreams... are they the start to something serious?
Am I not cursed with slumber, but blessed with the power of dreams?
The fact that you were hoping for readers tells me that you're open for comments.
ReplyDeleteDreams are electrical impulses being pushed around in your brain, they're pieces of thoughts you've had, memories you've had, people and things you know. Just randomly pushed together. It has nothing to do with any sort of higher power. It has no real meaning, and it's dangerous to think that it does.
Now, obviously you believe in God. You're right in saying that it's not God's bad that this Paula person cheated on (your friend, I'm assuming) Alex. Humans are given free will, our choices are ours. We can base them off of guidance from certain places (religion, parents, etc) but God isn't guiding our steps like a marionette. As for this Dakota guy. I'm assuming he's someone you want to be with. According to his blog, he's extremely happy with the person he's with. If you really care about this guy, and you missed a chance or he just never wanted to be with you, then you should do the right thing and just be happy for him. He's happy. She's happy, too, judging by the comment she posted on his last post and judging by her blog entries. You'll find that happiness someday, when you least expect it. Just don't try to take someone else's away. If it helps, write down a letter to him and her about all of the thoughts you've been having. You don't have to give it to them, it's just a way to get everything out. That way, you can put things into perspective.
I hope you aren't offended. I'm just an acquaintance/kind of friend of yours who sees that you've been struggling. I don't know any details but I do know how to put the pieces together based through statuses and blog.
Interesting.
ReplyDeleteWell. Thank you for your comment.
I'm curious as to who you are, but I think I'd rather not know, if that's fine.
And, ..alright. Okay. I needed guidance, and there you gave some.
Thank you, ..stranger. :P