I don't like eating my feelings.

Um.

I forgot that why I am so bitter and why I do see it as troublesome that I'm the one w the ability to do all these things for so many different people is, because I never feel like it's enough, thanks to said person at the time.

I know how greatly it should be seen, and it just isn't. It's like, ..I don't know really, but I feel on my end like it's just been dismissed. Like a queen or king, take it, take a look at it, appear bored w it, then toss it aside and dismiss me. No "good job," no "man, thank you so much!" nope.

That's what's made me bitter, and irritated to be that person back then and even now.

(I might be the only one who understands the fact that I am the way I am ((bitter, etc)) due to past occurrances-- and not just one-timers, like repeat offenders, I'm talkin'. I learn from my mistakes.. Sometimes too much. Maybe this is one of those times when I should be able to let go, but reminders actually only remind me to stay strong to what I've learned and stop acting like a pussy and backing down for whatever reason.)




Reminds me to remember, so thank you.