To Anonymous [and to other likes Anonymous]:

I have no reason to go out of my way to explain this situation to you, but to end your criticism and to soften your harsh views, I'll go out on a limb--


I understand that you're aware of Katherine's side of the story, and my side of the story-- and I'm assuming that you aren't interested in knowing Dakota's side, but ..from the outside, that is understandable.. But, even knowing all three of our sides (as if that were the case), you can't really understand completely, unless you were completely involved. Which, as strange as it is, the three of US are hardly all completely involved in this.



From Katherine's:
I was her friend, I stopped being her friend, she liked Dakota, she dated Dakota, she hated me, she got dumped (sorry for putting it this way), she feels like shit, she hates me and she hates Dakota.

From mine:
She was my friend, he was my best friend, I loved him; I told her, Dakota was a dick and we had a fight, I stopped being her friend, Dakota and I made-up, she dated Dakota, I told Dakota that I loved him and tried to get him to pick me over her, she hated me, I told him he'd never be able to forget about me and I'd wait, he ended up picking me, she got dumped (again, sorry), she feels like shit, I'm living in Florida w Dakota, she hates me and she hates Dakota.

From Dakota's:
He was my best friend, he got fed up w me and told me off, stopped talking to me, started talking to Katherine, started talking to me again, dated Katherine, was given my ultimatum, picked Katherine (because he'd already picked Katherine), she hated me, he was told that he'd never forget me and that I'd wait, he ended up picking me because he couldn't forget me, he broke up with Katherine, told me I could move to Florida, I lived with him in Florida, she hate(s/d) him.



The point is, this was always in the cards.
Katherine knew it, because she was there through most-everything, but on my side of it all.
Everything's in the past now, and I hope she's doing okay with it all at this point.
Dakota and I are dating, and we're happy, and we like each other, and we're on the same page, and this is it, and this is how it's going to be.


I understand you boys saying that you don't want me to be mistreated or have my feelings hurt-- and moreso, I appreciate you looking out for me and my feelings. But, everyone gets in arguments, and everyone says harsh things that they explode with and don't always mean. People say things and agree to others' comments, to keep the peace, sometimes.

I'm not taking up for him when it comes to the times he hurt me. When he said bad things to me, and when they stabbed me deeper than a knife could've. He knows he hurt me. I've told him the side-effects his actions and words have had on me. It's not something that a 'sorry' can fix, and no one has a time-machine we can borrow, but this is life, and life sucks. But, to move on with life, I've recently realized, in a positive, onward-like way, we must forgive and do our best to put it out of our minds. The hurt, the betrayals, the harsh words, the anger, the lack of understanding. We just have to put them behind us..


It's like.. We have baggage (ie: a backpack that we carry with us at all times), and we're on a hike. We're all going somewhere different-- some of us have the same destination in mind, but there are so MANY destinations imaginable. Along the way, we meet a lot of people, so different, from different places, that have been through different things, and learned different lessons, and we can take the time to compare notes and bond, and when we depart, we can either hope that we someday meet again, or just accept that we won't need them anymore because our paths are drastically becoming more and more different.. Bad things happen-- obstacles and rain and running out of food, and things. We have to experience glitches in the plan we've made for ourself, but once we're going through it, and something good happens and changes it, or makes it better, or provides us with the solution to our problem, --that's when we have to decide what to do: are we going to carry those problems and troublesome memories on our shoulders as we continue to go on, or are we going to stick them in our backpack, where we can refer to them when we need to, later on? Either way, we can't stop on our path forever. We have to get up and get started again. Yeah, your path may change because you've encountered other options you didn't realize were possible for you, or we may've met people that we latch on to, and want to keep no matter what, ..but the point is, we have to get up and get started again. And, you have to do something with that problem. Carry it on your shoulders and hold that grudge, and go on but go slower and drag yourself along, or.. put that shit in your backpack! Sometimes, you'll feel so used to the baggage you carry along, that you forget your carrying that heavy bag, and you'll just get absorbed in what's going on present-time. Those are the moments we strive for, and revel in.

You've gotta take care of yourself, make your situation as good as possible. You've gotta keep going, you've gotta get there. I have too much on my shoulders. I had too much on my shoulders. I've put it in my backpack now. I can't keep dragging myself along. It's time to get up from my nap, and put the stress and worry and anxiety and troubles evenly distributed and pep myself up again, and allow myself to remember to forget, and just keep looking onward! You should too.

We can't just keep hating people. We can't just keep low forever. Sometime, we are going to get up and POP up! And realize that if a bird shits on your shoulder, hey- maybe it really IS good luck. And, know that if you keep falling and keep getting scars and bruises, you're just having character added, that's all. You're growing tougher's all. We should realize that our own goals are to be happy ourselves, and do for ourselves, and then take care of others, help when and where we can. But.. even though that's pretty true for most of us, I think we forget to do that for the people immediately surrounding us. Instead, we hate because of one decision or rash statement, and that isn't okay. We can't be vengeful, because that's just ..mean. Why can we try to hurt someone so intensely, when we're scared to death ourselves of being hurt? Why can we try to make others' lives bad, when we try so hard to keep our lives in check, or check plus? It's not okay.


I've let it go. I'm going to keep letting it go. I just want to love, and help, and be nice. I just want to let myself be loved.

I just want for you to be able to love, too.

Love love love love love love, and peace, and harmony. That's what it's all really needing to be about. We have to focus.



Just let it go, man.

All we're doing is trying.
All you're doing is trying.
I know. I really do know, okay? But let's just go. Because, you're getting exhausted, and I'm exhausted already, and we're all just needing to take a little break, take a breath, eat some chocolate, drink some coffee, get up and go on.

That's it.
Come on.