Transfer'd.

11:52pm 7/26/04

mood: accomplished
music: Soap Net!!
I am going to describe myself the best I can with what I have learned about myself lately...

I still like the things I have liked, such as, spaghetti and chocolate and black and baby animals..

I am the kind of person who is trying to sink deeper than needed to find out who I am and why I am, while others go through life never knowing or caring.

I am going to start caring about myself and let everyone else look out for themselves. No more comments made by me unless I am asked. No more mean comments to anyone even siblings unless I feel that I strongly need to argue for myself.

I refuse to feel sorry for myself when there are millions of people around the world getting raped right now and people getting murdered by the least suspected person in there world..I am better off.

I am going to decide if I truly believe and God and if I do then I have to do better at following the 10 commandments.

I have decided that I do not hate boys, I just hate how some boys are and/or act sometimes. I like boys alot, and it doesn't hurt to look sometimes. I have realised that I need to go with the flow and let the right guy find me since I have looked everywhere I could possibly think to look for him. I know that he is out there and he will find me.

I realise that I am a person and I should be treated like one. People can either treat me right or not, I do not care. you can like me or hate me, it is your choice. I am going to be myself and good luck with being yourself.

I am poetic and that is very good considering it gives me something to share with the world. It gives me something to do and to explain my feelings and thoughts into words.

I love music, I do not care if you like it or not. Music is my anti-drug. haha. I will continue loving music and listening to lyrics understand me.

I do not do drugs and I am not going to. I am not an alcoholic, I will have 'fun' every once in awhile.

I know that we are each going to die one day and we should do what makes us happy. If that includes smoking on your part, I do not and will not say a word against it unless you ask. Be happy.

I think friends should be there for you always. Be on your side everytime. Take up for you when someone is talking about you. Won't fight over a guy or anything stupid like that.

I think bf's should love you and appreciate your individuality. Recognize your creativity and determination. Love your mind, body and soul. Always be there for you no matter what happens and if there is a time when you need to seperate because of a personal problem, they will respect that and remain at your side and be your prince to slay the dragon everytime you need it.

I am going to be an outgoing person. I am going to appreciate more. I am going to love and allow myself to be loved. I am going to drown myself in tears while watching Moulin (sp?) Rouge. I am going to find myself and bring it out for the world to see. I am not going to stop trying to make everyone see that there is more to a person than appearance alone. I am going to keep working on changing the world to understand the non-understandables.

I am going to continue excelling at my passions; writing stories, poems, and hopefully lyrics. Playing guitar and listening to music.

I am-myself, finally.




***I just feel as though you guys should know. I have found myself and I know it will help me as things ahead get better and worse. I hope you guys have something of a goal as I did with finding myself. Good luck and if you care enough you will find it.