Transfer'd.

11:32pm 7/28/04

mood: annoyed
sometimes, I think it is so ignorant of me to ask repetitively (sp?)-I am stretching my vocabulary-it is so ignorant on my part to keep asking to get online just to be on for this. I hardly ever have anyone talking to ME, I am always talking to them and I feel like I am bugging everyone, which I really should not care because Ihave decided to not care about anyone else excluding myself. I piss myself off becauseI think I am changing and alot of times I am not. who knows? who honestly knows? and do not say God because I do not want to get into that subject right now.. back to the original subject-I get so mad because I think about something or someone and get all excited about it and want to get online and talk to that person or tell people something small that has just recently occurred in my life that is pointless within itself by the way. and then I feel as though I always have to write down what has happened to me in this stupid L.J where everyone can see it, why is that?> I mean, it isn't like anyone reads it anyways and people that do read it only read it because they have nothing better to do except read about oter people's lives. and I am talking about myself also. but nobody comments and you know why that is? because no one cares. and the few that do comment, well, I cannot tell you why they do. I am sorry. I comment on people because I do not want them to feel like I do. why should I care? I know I shouldn't but that doesn't change anything. I need to stop and isolate myself from the world. maybe then, I would feel alright, I doubt it. who knows? I cannot talk to anyone about anything. nothing helps, and if it does then it is only for a little while. I started on here in a good mood, I have no idea what set me off. I do not care what you think. commenty if you want. no one cares. be a bitch. no one cares.

have fun. party. drink. get high. no one cares.

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